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so help me God, i'm in captivity.

i am living with someone i didn't have to, but had to.

and now i miss my privacy.

i miss hearing the noise of just being me.

i miss the kind of clean that i sweated out myself.

i miss the insignificance of time when i'm the only one using the shower, or the loo, or the stove, or the computer table, or the TV, or the freaking electric fan on a hot hot hot sunday evening.

i miss not worrying about whether it's too early for baileys or too late for breakfast.

i miss being able to light up whenever i want to, wherever i need to and whatever i'm wearing.

i miss coming home to a place knowing i still have a place where i can just be me.

i miss not having to pretend that it's perfectly fine to share my house with someone i barely know.

so help me God, i miss my privacy.